好久沒有坐過超長途機，對上次應該是今年三月了。這次是個10天的假期，先去日本然後再去新西蘭。不久之前的我，對這些旅行一定會興奮不已，出發前必定計劃周詳。不知怎樣，這次好像有點力不從心，連收拾行李也是在最後關頭才動工。加上不知是否對工作太用功，還是年紀又大了，坐在椅子15多個小時好像將要取我命似的。明明是要渡假，心情好像快要上班似的。前面是美好的風景和旅遊聖地，但我還是要努力地花時間去探索，畢竟好的東西是不會自動送到面前，而是要自己爭取的。回望過去，自己都錯過或趕走了不少機會，不管是工作上還是感情上都有：是不是自己太天真和不會上進？太過自我中心和頭腦簡單？容易滿足還是好逸惡勞？個性率直還是目中無人？
自己的缺點就得面對和改善。不如把恐懼揮走，好好利用這15個小時去反思吧
Guess what, my last ultra long haul trip as a passenger was in March. I am starting a 10 days trip in a few hours to Japan and New Zealand. Not long ago, this kind of trip would put me a thrilling mode even days before departure and would motivate me to work on all planning. However, I am not really moved to do anything for this trip. I packed my bags at last minute. Also, pressure from work and age makes me feel like to die of sitting in a small seat for 15 hours. My mood is like going to work even I am officially on leave. Although the good things are ahead, I still need to explore with my strength since I the goods are never delivered themselves to me. Instead, I need to struggle and fight for them.
I missed and slipped many opportunities from many hands in the past on both career and love: am I always too innocent or non ambitious? Am I too subject, self-centered or naive? Am I contented too easily or resist to jump out of the comfort zone? Am I too straight forward or not respectful to the others?
I am gonna face and fix my weakness. Let me get rid of the fear and think in these 15 hours.
